Repent, Sinner

there's something compelling to me about the fact that sometimes leaving a blade or bullet inside the wound it made is the only way to prevent you from bleeding to death. something about the symbolism of it. when the thing designed and intended to kill you is the only thing keeping you alive.

also yes i do enjoy a bit of penetration imagery and the perverse intimacy of violence. if you must know.

sometimes you just need to watch a horror movie.... and sometimes it just doesnt even help or make you feel anything... but well at least you watched a horror movie

love that fighting is considered a pokemon type. like Yea I got magical elemental skills it’s called kicking your ass

Once my boyfriend told me: "You're not a burden. A burden is something you're forced to carry against your will. I freely choose to be a part of your life and that means you aren't a burden to me." I'm passing it on in case some of you need to be reminded of that.

There are political newspaper comics that aren't this succinct

I need everyone to know that the ship Götheborg, the world's largest ocean-going wooden sailing ship, answered a distress call the other day.

Imagine waiting for the coast guard or whatever to show up and instead a replica of 18th century merchant ship pulls up and tows you to the coast.

i mean this in the gentlest way possible: you need to eat vegetables. you need to become comfortable with doing so. i do not care if you are a picky eater because of autism (hi, i used to be this person!), you need to find at least some vegetables you can eat. find a different way to prepare them. chances are you would like a vegetable you hate if you prepared it in a stew or roasted it with seasoning or included it as an ingredient in a recipe. just. please start eating better. potatoes and corn are not sufficient vegetables for a healthy diet.

Need it to be easier?

• baby carrots (good dipped in ranch)
• Celery sticks (add some peanut butter or cream cheese for extra flavor and protein)
• Broccoli (good with ranch, cheese, or salt/pepper/butter)
• Canned peas (you can microwave in a microwave-safe bowl. Good with salt/pepper/butter)
• Bell peppers (cut into strips, good with cream cheese)
• Canned green beans (can be microwaved in microwave-safe bowl. Good with salt/pepper/butter)
• Hummus (good with crackers or tortilla chips)
• Salsa (good with tortilla chips)
• Guacamole (good with tortilla chips)

Need it in something?

Can't see it:

• Hummus
• salsa
• Guacamole

Can see but disguised flavor (can usually be found store bought or done at home and use different veggies):

• Dressed up ramen - just toss in some random veggies in ramen of your choice. Pretty much everything I've tried goes fine with it.
• Chicken pot pie
• Vegetable soup (with so many together it's hard to taste any specific one!)
• Chicken noodle soup
• Sweet and sour pork (haven't tried it but chicken should be fine in place of pork)

Texture problems:

Need it soft:

• Hummus
• Salsa
• Guacamole
• Cooked carrots
• Avocados
• Beans (personally I prefer black beans and canned baked beans)
• Peas (make sure to cook well, great value brand has the softest peas I've tried)
• Cooked broccoli (note: it does smell bad while cooking)
• Cooked asparagus (note: also smells bad while cooking)
• Cooked zucchini and squash (good together but can be eaten separate)
• You can also puree most vegetables and eat with a spoon or use them as a dip

Needs to be crunchy:

• Raw carrots
• Raw celery
• Raw bell peppers
• Salad (remember you can put whatever you want in it! Even if that means no lettuce)
• Most veggies are okay raw, and are usually very crunchy

Veggies google says stay crunchy after lightly cooking:

• Snap peas
• Brussel sprouts
• Cabbage
• Water chestnut
• Bamboo shoots

Broad texture tips:

• You can change textures by eating raw, cooking, chopping, pureeing, etc
• You can separate different textures to use in different ways (ie using broccoli tops in a soup and eating the bottoms raw)

It also really helps to think about why you dislike a vegetable. I found that I am scared of green foods so I like to use those veggies for ingredients in things they are well hidden for. I've also learned that watching something while eating helps because then I'm not looking at the gross green things. When possible, I also like to get help hiding it (ie using cream of celery soup in my chicken and dumplings).

something something the poetry of science etc

Sumerian Veteran: *has severe PTSD but doesn't know it because the term won't be invented for another 5000 years* I fight the same battle in my dreams every night and my relationship with my family has fallen apart.

Sumerian Healer: *saw hundreds of veterans with the exact same affliction before* You're cursed by desert demons.

actually we have recorded texts of sumerian warriors describing symptoms that closely match ptsd, and the diagnoses was not desert demons, but rather "Those dudes you killed are still attacking you with their ghosts because you killed them"

For those wanting sources, albeit its during Assyrian time period not Sumerian but still its Mesopotamia

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life actually gets better when you leave the house consistently btw like im serious

if you don't know where to go, just wander! go to the store and don't buy anything, go to the library just to sit and do whatever you were going to do at home, go to a park and just walk around/sit outside for a bit (weather permitting, of course)

just put some headphones in and walk around the block a couple times if you really have nothing else to do, just getting a bit of air and change of scenery is so good for you

me the first few weeks of forcing myself to go on daily walks (it gets better tho)

i really need tumblr to learn the concept of “if you physically cannot do this then this post is not talking about you” because jesus christ.

@a-spectacular-pigeon you get it.

i will ALWAYS clap my hands excitedly and lean forward in my seat when someone tells a character to "keep your dog on a leash" only for it to turn out they're referring to another person

the way it reframes the entire relationship dynamic between the two people being addressed. the way wilful loyalty becomes hopeless devotion. the way aggression and violence goes from honorable and rational to bestial and instinctual. the ways faith and trust intersect with codependency and reliance. the questions about power and who wields it in the relationship it opens up. the way it functions as both an insult and an expression of intimidation, of fearful submission.